We have never been looking for truth. We have been looking for a concept to match the self-concept we build and maintain as the real self. Self-concept is an image, a conception of self, an actor with a role that we play. Truth of oneself cannot take its rightful place as long as there is an actor playing a role.
The world is a projection of the actor and his role. My concept of the world speaks of the role I, as an actor, play. Why?
If the role I play did not match the world then it could not be played. I would have to change the role, adjust it, change some settings, some of the masks of the actor and adjust them to fit the concept of the world. As an actor and his role, I am able to adjust neither role, nor mask nor the manner of acting, for that would change my world-concept and the self-concept I am attached to through the role, mask, manner of acting, the theatre and the audience that came to witness, see my play.
The Truth I fantasize about always fits my concept of the world and my concept of self as an actor, with all my moods, monologues, dialogues, evaluations and responses that are strictly tied to my role and the show itself. The show itself is a world-concept, while the role and the actor are parts of the show, up until one of them gives up.
Up until the actor realizes that something is wrong with him or the show itself, the Truth is unable to influence him. He needs to understand that with his acting he is blocking any truth that might be different than him as an actor in a show, different than the part he is playing. The actor, the acting and the show are one. That is the truth. No new truth can enter while the space is already taken by some other truth.
If the actor becomes open to something else, to a different truth than the one he currently thinks is true, the acting, masks and the show itself are weakened, which the audience will not tolerate. For, members of the audience are actors in their own show and, just like the actor on stage, they too play their part. The actor is bound by the show, the theatre, the concept of the show, the concept of self, by the audience too. This is the truth of him, and until this truth feels like an open sore, he cannot aspire to find a different truth. He cannot aspire to another truth if he keeps responding to the game he is in, thinking that the play he is playing and is a part of, is the truth.
He can aspire to a different truth only when he questions the trueness of the play he is playing, the show, the role, masks, the audience itself, and when he is open to a truth that is different than the one he thinks is true. Which means he has put a question mark over the current truth.
It will be a long time before he learns to be open to Truth. But shedding light on current truths leads to final enlightenment, final Truth. The Truth. The Ultimate Truth.
If he puts a question mark over any part of the show, including the show of the audience, it will eventually lead him to the only cause of the play. Himself. This takes courage. And courage is not the lack of fear but moving forward despite it. It is aspiration to realize the Truth despite the fear he is feeling. When that aspiration brings him to the true cause of the game, which is himself, he looks at the actor and recognizes, for the first time, that the whole cause lies within him. He is the one playing, the one who had been believing, and maintaining the truth he thought to be true, playing along, accepting it. That moment of recognizing the actor for what he is, is a moment of insight. Whether he will fall back to sleep and play the role, or awaken, depends on many factors: on the game he is playing, role, masks, stage and the audience. As long as he thinks that the truth is within all that, as long as he is afraid – he will keep going back to the game he was playing, to the truth of the game.
But, when he realizes that it is only a concept of the game that he had accepted and is thereby able to discard it, give up playing, the actor wakes up. He sees the game but is not of the game. Walks off stage, bows to the audience which reacts according to its own play, according to the truth it believes. Which is none of his concern anymore, it is not his truth anymore. He understands that he, as the cause, had caused the whole game, the roles, the masks, and the audience encouraging him to continue his role. This truth awakens him. While rejecting it speaks of his readiness to meet the Ultimate Truth.
What is the Ultimate Truth?
Only the one who had seen all other truths as lies and had discarded them; one who had realized that the actor he believed was true is a lie and had discarded him too – can know this. For all truths and lies spring from a single source. The belief that the actor is real. The consequence of this is a game in which an actor, who doesn’t know himself, plays the game along with the world and the audience. The ultimate consensus.